Every person reaches it some point in time.
The place where for that moment, you really want someone so bad.
Someone to love; someone to hold; someone to do the most retardedly silly things in public with and not care what the rest of the world may think.
Someone to cherish; someone to embrace; someone to look deep into his/her eyes and say:
"I love you"
This time has dawned upon me, and my heart has never ached nor pined so badly for someone before.
Three quarters of my army mates are attached, and in this period of sweet freedom they get to spend it with that someone special, but I don't.
They look forward to the end of every week of activity, with that special girl in mind to keep them going through the toughest of trainings and shit, but I don't.
Sometimes I lie on my bed and ponder if I had let the wrong one go, that maybe I've made a mistake, or two, or three. And sometimes I want one back so badly I even dream about her.
I miss the times when I was there for her.
I miss the times where we studied together, and hung out at her favorite but most unusual place looking at stationery.
I miss the times when we spent chatting over the phone about the most random things.
I miss the times when I sent her home.
I miss the time when I wiped away her tears after we both received our horrid results and no one in class knew what to do nor dared to do anything but me.
I miss the times when the briefest of glances would send us both sniggering at God knows what, and how she gave me that half-irritated look when she saw my cheeky smile.
I miss her.
She was just like my mother, gentle, caring, honest, submissive, and had such a pure, pure character. And she was so incredibly pretty too.
I miss her so.
But it's too late now.
Perhaps I should never have let her go.
Perhaps I still can get her back.
Perhaps she's still waiting for me.
But I know I can't...
The feeling really sucks, not knowing what could have been.
I walk around these few days looking at every girl that walks past; every couple; wishing that that could be me holding the hand of that girl.
Just a few months ago I wouldn't even bother looking at any girl but now it's so different.
I guess thats what 3 months of being surrounded by guys does to you.
Oh well, guess I just have to suck it up and wait till this moment passes. I hope it goes by quick, and that in the right to come my aching heart will be soothed.
And I hope to find something else that would keep me going till I finish my call of duty and move on to my further studies, to the time when it is right to find love for real.
And when I finally meet the girl of my dreams, and when I finally hold her in my arms, I swear right now that these will be the first words out of my mouth.
"Where have you been all my life"And pray she'll reply.
"Right here waiting for you"Cheesy?
yes.
Corny?
yupp.
Lame?
maybe.
But am I serious?
absolutely.
